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After the 1st year degree, as usual, I went to mother's house. Surprisingly, aunt Laly was also there in the house with one of her children - I think the younger one. Then, I had a desire to watch Television as I did in the previous year. Aunt Laly gave me permission on the condition that I should return before 06.30 p.m. But I couldn't because each programme was new to me. Suddenly, I heard a voice - grandfather was calling me, standing in the main road. I wondered and returned to house. Grandfather was very angry at that time.
I asked aunt Laly, "why is he very angry ? In the previous year, we went to watch Television at this time". She replied, "the situation has changed. Don't you know about aunt Molly's issue ? Grandfather wouldn't allow anyone to go out in the evening". I was embarrassed. I didn't know what to say. I think I returned to my own house after one or two days. If my memory is correct, It was the time of study leave for 1st year degree course. Even if I tried to learn something, I couldn't. The syllabus was not fully covered. I was not able to learn myself.
When I observed my classmates, I understood one thing - their parents fully supported them. We had examinations in the main subject Chemistry, and the subsidiary subjects Physics and Mathematics. Then there were English and Hindi. I learnt these languages only one day ie. on the previous day of the examination. However, I scored above 60 % of marks for these languages. But for all the three subjects, including the main subject Chemistry, I scored very low marks. Then, there was an option - improvement examination.
Though the syllabus has totally changed nowadays, I can't hide the system through which I came forward. The failed ones as well as those who got low marks applied for improvement examination. I forgot to mention an important incident. When I was in IInd year degree, my neighbour, Basil also joined for degree and he opted Chemistry as his main subject. Though we were neighbours, we didn't speak with each other.
I have to say a lot of things to you - my sorrows and achievements. My sorrows were many. But there were no one to help me. "Anyone in this village won't support me", I thought sadly. Yet, I decided to continue like that because my mind was strong as I was a Sunday School student, and also studied in school upto Xth Std , understanding each concept & idea, imbibing only the right ones.
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