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( 87 )o,
( 87 )o,
It was in 1991 that St Peter's College, Kolenchery celebrrated its silver jubilee. I think the celebrations continued for three days. There was a programme by the college music troup. When I joined the college, I knew that there was a music troup. I had a secret desire to join the troup but as I was very shy, I couldn't even think about joining the troup in which the boys from Degree and Post Graduation were also included. Another exciting moment was the presence of renowned cine actors, Jayaram and Serenivasan. Another unforgettable moment was a musical concert by the famous playback singer, G Venugopal and his music troup. His sound was suitable for melodies. I was a fan of his hit melodious Malayalam film songs. Throughout the musical concert, I was sitting there completely involved in it.
In many circumstances, I was not a flawless personality. I openly confess some of the mistakes I had committed during my hostel life. One day, I was alone in my hostel room. Then, I got an idea. Both Merlin and Ramla had boyfriends and the others used to tease them on this matter. I don't know whether their friendships were genuine or not. One of them had the habit of writing diary. So, I had got an interest to read her diary and taking it, I started reading. Suddenly, it happened - someone was knocking at the door. I closed the diary, placed it at the correct position and opened the room. The person was a girl in the next room and she looked at me suspiciously. She asked me what was I doing there. She had looked through the peep hole in our room. She told this incident to my roommates and they questioned me. But I didn't make a confession because of my self - esteem . At last, Merlin advised me many things. "Diya, you donot do anything against the rule of the hostel. Here, in this room, four students are living, who came from different families. So, in this room, we must be like a family. Tell us openly if there is a problem. There should not be a hidden secret".
On another day, I was studying, walking through the corridor of the 1st floor . I think it was study leave for me. There was no practice of locking the door of the rooms. I wonder what was the reason behind it. However, I slowly opened the door of a room, entered into it and looked around. I was in a thrilling mood and opened every room, making a search everywhere. But when I entered a room, I could see a bowl, full of snacks. For a moment, I thought - but I yielded before the temptations - I took some of them. When I came out of the room, my mind was filled with the feeling of guilt. Every sinner experiences it. Suddenly, I walked downwards and reached my room. For one or two days, I was very afraid. I doubted whether any of the members of the hostel had seen me or not. I was realising the mental condition of a sinner. I don't remember every mistake I had made, but I understood that I was only an ordinary girl - there was nothing special in my personality.
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